Brutal Honesty

Angel

6/2/2020

We all know May is mental Health Awareness Month, but this should be something we are focusing on every day. Whether it’s for ourselves or for our loved ones. Today though, I will freely admit that mine is suffering. It’s been a slow progression, but I’ve felt it happening for a few weeks now. Something many don’t empathize with or understand, is what we as caregivers deal with. I surround myself with everyone else’s problems everyday. I am always feeling hypervigilant to what’s happening with those around me. Isolation has been increasingly hard on my kids, and I spend so much time focusing on issues we had before this, that are now rearing ten times worse through this time, that I lost the ability to prioritize what’s happening within myself. Occasionally I feel like I might just break, but then I remember that I literally can’t. So what now? The same answer that I give myself daily….push it down and move forward. Sometimes I break, but it’s when I’m alone and can yell or cry it out without anyone seeing. I can give everyone else the talk about taking care of themselves, and how important that is, but I guess I just don’t feel like I have time for my own advice.

Stay strong folks, we have to believe it will get better and we will heal. Don’t beat yourself up for the way you feel right now, it won’t last forever. It’s a bad moment, not a bad life. At some point, we’ll look back on this year and remember how rough it was, but also how we managed to push through.